Before I begin this post I wanted to say that those of you who have been long time readers of my blog and who know me well are aware that I am a lady of a few words. You can see this in my blog posts as well as in my comments on your blogs. There are times where I will make a long post and share my deep thoughts and feelings, and this is one of those few posts. Warning: it is a long post. Thank you so much for reading.
One of you asked me to share more about HSP (Highly Sensitive People). I have been a HSP ever since I can remember! I think it was beginning to show when I was in grade 2 in elementary school. A teacher of mine noticed that I wasn't as quick to catch on as the rest of the students in the class, so I was put into a class for slower learners. While I will admit that yes, I do have a slower capacity for picking up some things, especially things with a lot of details, I am not sure I actually belonged in this class because there were students in the class who were slower than I was. I am quite a deep thinker. I like to take my time to absorb things, to analyze, to go over, basically, to look at all angles before I make a decision. Perhaps the teacher didn't understand my personality/character, but whatever her reasoning, I was put into the special class in grade 2 and was in this class until grade 9 in high school! Yes. I want to share about HSP more in depth, and please know that this is my personal life experience, it doesn't necessarily speak for other HSPs; however, some of it will, because HSPs have much of what I will describe in common.
I am highly sensitive to the people and things around me, and although this can, and actually is, a very good quality, sometimes I tend to take things too personally, which is something I have been working on. For example, sometimes somebody may be in a bad mood and snap at me...sometimes this can make me resort to tears. I have to remember that it isn't about me, it is about them. They may be having a bad day and I just happened to be there when they explode or whatever. :) I am also highly sensitive to light; particularly bright lights, such as neon lights. They are the worst and sometimes give me a headache.
I don't like loud noises, crowds and as such, I have never liked parades, concerts or big parties. It isn't that I am not a people person, quite the contrary. I love people it is just the noise from large groups of people that I don't like. I love one on one interaction, and I love to go to friends' homes for meals and to spend time with them. If things get rowdy or too loud, I will make my way out and graciously depart. I love quiet time, in fact, I really need this on a daily basis, mostly in the evenings, as it gives me time to relax, to rejuvenate, to ponder, to pray, to just be!
When I was a baby, my mother kept wondering why I didn't wake up for the usual two hour feedings that 'normal' babies do. I slept through the night. I was only 5.8 pounds when I was born, and I was born 3 weeks premature. The doctors said that if I was half a pound less I would have been in an incubator. My mother had already lost 5 children...four were miscarried and her fifth, a son, who was born about 6 years before I was born, sadly died at the tender age of 7 months (bronchial pneumonia). So you can imagine why my mother was so worried about me not waking up for feedings during the night. The doctor told her that as long as I ate, don't worry about me, and that my mother was lucky to not only have a child after having lost 5, and I was born just 2 months short of my mother's 41st birthday, but to have a baby who slept through the night!
I was made fun of in school a lot by the children in the regular classes. I was often called "stupid," "retarded", and it really hurt and I often went home crying. Having had this experience of being in a special class for slow learners gave me a great insight into what these children go through on a daily basis, and I am very sensitive and understanding, not to mention patient, with people who are autistic, retarded, dyslexic or any other mental illness or disability. For this I am very grateful.
Getting back to the HSP...I am very sensitive to others' moods and feelings, and I have a tremendous capacity to learn, to work and to live. I am independent and punctual, a great worker, and where I have the issues is if an employer doesn't understand my personality type (some employers are not patient, understanding or people-oriented and sometimes they even yell at and belittle staff). I must say that I have been blessed in about 90% of the jobs I have worked at. The employers valued my honesty, my attention to detail, my sensitivity to the needs of others and the company and the quality of my work. Basically, for myself, it isn't about the speed of the job, but how well done the job is. That describes me in a nutshell. I much prefer to take a few minutes longer to make sure that things are done properly than to speed up, make more mistakes resulting in perhaps having to do things all over again. I know this is long, and I don't usually make long posts, but I hope that this will help you all to get to know me better and the way I think, who I am and what some of my life experiences are. Thank you so much for listening.
The videos I have selected for this post are:
A Just for Laughs Gag/Juste pour Rire
Firefighters Had No Idea a Simple Act of Kindness would Lead to This!
Snorkeling Animal Handler Teaches Cute Penguin to Swim
Random Acts of Kindness from Police Officers
The one lesson I have learned is that there is no substitute for paying attention. - Diane Sawyer