When I was in elementary school...and high school, I was, since grade 2, in a "special" class. This class was geared to pupils who have different learning abilities...or as some put it, "slow learners." When I am in a positive, calm environment with friendly and helpful people, I have no problems with picking up the skills I need to do a job. However, if it is a very stressful, and/or unfriendly environment and really fast paced, I feel at odds as far as being able to pick up things as well as I would like to. I am a very good worker...punctual, loyal, honest and hard working. I just march to the beat of a different drum than others, I suppose...and since we are not all the same, and it would be pretty boring if we were, I guess. I sometimes get frustrated when I feel that I don't have the same "capabilities" as others. I am learning to not compare myself to others, as I am better at some things than some people...and not so good at some things as some people. But I am always...me.
I never told anyone about my having been in a special class, because it was an embarrassment to me. I have worked all my life, getting my first job right out of high school, and fortunately I have had great employers for the most part, who have taken the time to train their employees. I broke down and admitted about my schooling, though, last November, telling health professionals and the government. I feel as though I am in a time warp, in a way. However, I feel that I did the right thing by telling my doctor and other health professionals, and the government, as the more the job market changes, the harder it is for me...so there it is. I am very blessed to have a really good doctor, who is very caring, concerned and professional, and he is never rushed and always takes the time to help in any way he can.
When I see in jobs that are advertised things like "fast learner", "fast paced", it makes me feel frustrated in a way. I broke my right wrist in two places 5 years ago in a work accident...that, plus I have arthritis. This means that I cannot fully close my hands, so there is not a lot of strength in my hands. This also affects the speed at which I perform, but for myself, I think that accuracy and a job well done is more important than the speed at which it is performed. However, try telling this to some employers...especially today. It seems that the more technology advances, the faster they expect employees to be.
Today employers are understaffed, so you sometimes have one employee doing the work of three. This is in many fields, including customer service, which is why, when you go to a store, it is difficult to find anyone on the floor to help you...if and when you need it.
I am currently getting the help of an employment counselor, which thankfully is free, because I am on welfare. This employment counselor specializes in helping those who are either (or both) intellectually and physically disabled. She is helping me with my resume and just about everything else job-related. She will not, however, get me a job, this I must (and really want to) do on my own. I don't like being on welfare. I am used to working and like to have the feeling that I am making an income, as I am independent and a worker. I know, though, that the majority of available jobs are not advertised, so I make it a point to tell everyone I know that I am avidly seeking employment.
I would very much appreciate your prayers and/or thoughts on my behalf, as there are days where I just feel totally useless and discouraged. It isn't easy looking for work in this day and age, especially when one has one or more disabilities. I still try to stay positive and look at my abilities, though.
Here is an image of old fashioned customer service. Thank you all for listening and for visiting my blog.