I went to a restaurant this morning for breakfast. I don't do this often but I try to a couple of times a month. Anyway, I have had the wonderful opportunity to get to know two really nice waitresses at this restaurant. They are very kind and professional and I enjoy talking to them when they aren't too busy. Today one of the waitresses was bringing me a second cup of coffee which they do at no charge to customers who want one and who have a meal there. The waitress who served me today accidentally dropped the coffee cup and saucer, filled with coffee and the coffee spilled all over the table and on my lap. She was so apologetic...however, I said to her, "Please don't worry, it was an accident; accidents happen!" Although I felt the heat from the coffee on my lap it didn't burn me. I was wearing jeans and the jeans, I suppose, protected my legs from any possible burn. The waitress apologized profusely several times. I told her please not to be concerned about it, as this was an accident, and although I felt the heat of the coffee I was not injured. I mentioned to her that if I were to be upset about this, then how would I be in a more dire situation? Seriously, life is too short to get upset over something like this (in my view). I just did a load of laundry when I got home, no harm done!
I know that some people struggle with various mental illnesses such as OCD and depression. I personally struggle with depression. I am a highly sensitive person (HSP), which is not a mental illness but rather a personality trait. There are good things and bad things in being a HSP. The good is that HSPs are able to be empathetic and compassionate to others. The bad is what I am dealing with at this time is that I tend to take things way too personally. An example would be if someone...usually someone I know on a personal level and am closer to, sends me an e-mail. Sometimes I perceive it as being cold if the e-mail is short and more to the point that I might be used to. The person is not meaning to, or being cold at all, they are perhaps short on time due to being on a work break and/or sending the e-mail by way of a cell phone as opposed to a computer (like I always and only use). One would think that I would appreciate the fact that the person took the time to send me the e-mail at all, especially since they were doing it on a break. (which I truly do). I guess I am so used to sending an e-mail when I have more time and not on a work break (and never on a cell phone, as I don't have one), that I really didn't think of the manner in which they sent me the e-mail...I just think that it seems cold at that moment. I am very hard on myself and things like this can really throw me into a depressed state, because I am hitting myself over how I reacted rather than just trying to learn from the situation. When I get to being so sensitive that I feel that others are being cold toward me....when they really are not, I just want to slap myself. Anyway, thank you all for bearing with me and for "listening." I could really use your prayers and thoughts on my behalf with this, as it is a very difficult thing for me to work on; and believe me, I am really trying to! Perhaps I am falling back into a depressed state so anything I feel will be much more intense than when I am not in this state. I have called and made an appointment with a social worker, because I feel that I need to talk about this in depth. Sometimes it is good to not deal with things as difficult as this alone, and perhaps being able to talk about it and hear what the social worker has to say may help. It certainly can't hurt. Social workers in my area are well equipped in dealing with mental health issues, such as depression, and they, unlike psychologists, are free of charge to meet with using a medicare card. Interesting, too, that just a week ago I made a post in reference to a depressed friend, and wondered why it is that depressed people go into hiding as opposed to coming out and talking about their depression. So I am trying to seek help rather than hide, by talking about it here and by making an appointment with a social worker. In closing on this topic, I don't have OCD...but I can relate to those who do, and here is how. Whereas someone who has OCD often cannot control their tendency to double, triple and quadruple...check things, and those who have OCD will know what I am talking about, when I feel sensitive about something I can't just "shut it off." I really wish I could!
I found the following quotation on Dr. Wayne W. Dyer's page on Facebook...Dr. Wayne W. Dyer